Busy

Ok, haven't updated this for a long long time, which is odd, as over summer I did so very little, and now I'm back to being hugely busy I'm making time for this. Ah well. So things are busy with me, and I'm enjoying it, I'm in the final year of four Alevels, applying for English Literature at University and learning to drive, and working my weekends. It's hectic, but I'm burying myself, making like a work burrow for the winter. This time of year is worst, it's not quite winter, not still summer, I'm still fighting cracking out my boots. Last time I saw all my winter stuff was on my Parisian adventure, so clearly it's going to be most nostalgic. On a whim last week I cancelled my New York escapade, saving myself nearly a thousand pounds (panicking over uni) and losing myself a stateside experience for my repetoire. Still, I can do Glastonbury, Reading and the MOT on my car with the money saved. Admittedly it was a bit of a rash decision, but whatever, it's done now. I wont regret it later. I've been pretty ill lately, maybe a combination of six weeks cheap wine abuse, over anxiety over small issues and under anxiety over large issues, on top of a sudden reduction in sleep. It was only this month, waking up with an inexplainable horrible mood that I sat down and made a list of all that I need to do up until christmas. This put a lot into perspective. No, I may not be the biggest go-er outer in the world right now, that's because I'm working on a lot of things that I really want to suceed in. After getting my As results I figured out that I am actually quite clever, so this year Im not doing what I did before, spending the year worrying about what other people percieve, this year i'm in school for myself, to get into uni and get my four a's I'm so badly after. Because if I can get them it'll prove a lot.