The art of just going along with stuff

I've had a mental old time lately. This past year in particular. I turn 17 on Thursday, and that always makes me think of what I've done with my year, what I can say I did as a 16 year old. Truth is an awful awful lot. I've learnt a lot about (get ready for a cliche) myself. Decided whats important to me, made some huge mistakes, and paid for them, then realised not to dwell on things. Just recently, very recently in fact, last Sunday in fact, I decided that I'm just going to take life as it happens. There is no point in dwelling on things which might never happen. Life is short, as I've always said, but never really understood. Not going to lie, one of the biggest mistakes I made this year, is one of the things I now hold dearest. Sometimes stuff runs like that. Luckily I never make any huge decisions, even now the grudge that I promised myself I would hold a few blogs back, is pretty much gone, because I dont have the staying power to be angry with someone continually. Maybe it does make me a bit of a doormat, I heard lately that I have too much time for people, and I never have this returned. This didn't worry me, at all. If anything it makes me happy. If people know I have time for them, this is nice. It also means noone has noticed how infitely selfish I am. Because I am, shamelessly. Plus, Im very dependant on others. SO WHAT. this is how I am, I can't help it. I'm a lot better as a person now, than I ever was before, and Im happier! Once you learn that you can;t change yourself to make everyone happy, and you can't make everyone like you, it makes you happy! If you focus on being happy with yourself, others will be happy with you. It's a good place i'm in. A lovely place really. I have less close friends than ever now, I've invited an all time low of people to my birthday thing, but I'm happier with it! I have an elite set, people I really care about, and can be myself around. Also, people who will look after me when I'm so drunk I can't see. Beautiful. Happy birthday to me!